the V Day blues

Alone for V day?? Guess what YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE! Lately Its been making me sick watching all the love birds kissy kissy. Not because I'm against love. Just because I'm alone. Last year I had the most beautiful Valentines Day with the only one I love. But this year its going to be spent with nothing but wonderful memories plaguing my mind. Here was my thought process with how to get through this holiday. - Valentines Day does NOT exist! But every time I walk into a store my way of thinking was molested by little heart shaped chocolates and big fluffy heart pillows! I have this odd new thing I do when I see lovey stuff like that. I scream in my head "I HATE YOU ROSES AND LOVEY CRAP! I HATE YOU SO DAMN MUCH!" I know my life problems are NOT there fault. But It makes my weak heart feel better to blame my absence of love on cute little gifts then on reality. Second thought process - Valentines Day does exist. And this year it will be full of feeling sorry for myself. That plan was working out quite well for me. When I went into stores and saw all the cute little gifts I would let my eyes tear up. Because this holiday was made just for me to feel upset. So I went out and stocked up on Gossip Girl and Champagne. I planned on spending all of V Day with the two of them in my bed. But this way of thinking was so depressing I did all that the day after I got it! It was time to come up with a new plan. THANK the LORD my friend from work stopped me one day last week and asked me if I had a date for V Day. I harshly said "No Magan! I plan on being alone! I'm not faking feeling for someone just so I can say I have a date!!" "Oh WONDERFUL!" she said "Wont you please be my date!!!" What a kick in the butt! Here I'd been feeling sorry for myself when really the day is about love. Not just romantic love. But sharing love with the people you care about. "I would love nothing more!" I said. We then decided for gifts we would both get each other a sexy set of lingerie. What fun!

So after all my bitterness here is my NEW agenda.

-get OUT of bed! (that's a new must)
-Spa morning with my mom. Hot tub, nails, mud mask, chocolate and of course endless mimosas
-go to lunch with my dad and mom. Considering sneaking mimosas with me.
-get into gym clothing and meeting Magan at Zumba.
-go back to her place, put on our V Day mix, pop the champagne, and get ready to go out to sushi and then the bars with a group of single ladies. Black is the dress code, so I'm wearing my favorite dress from Sweden, black heals, and a fur coat.
- go home and hop into pjs and know that though this year I'm not being held by the man I love, I have wonderful friends who love me and want to show that to me.
So ladies, if you're alone, just know you're really not! You have friends who love you! So go out and spend the day with them! Get dressed up cute and pamper yourself. But most importantly be receptive to the love they're trying to showing you!